I’ve taken a bit of a hiatus from blogging during the past few weeks. I have absolutely loved attending my friends’ and cousins’ weddings, and it’s been great spending time with my family and friends. But, perhaps with the mixed pressure of the American lifestyle as well as the “quarter-life” crisis upon me, I find myself feeling quite stressed and uneasy this summer.
Teaching summer school didn’t work out this time, so I am currently back at my old waitressing job. Luckily, I was also able to find a second job in order to be working full-time. However, I would be lying if I said it wasn’t an adjustment to experience pay cuts and to work alongside high school students when just a few short months ago, I was teaching them. (I realize that this is a reality that many Bachelor Degree college-grads/millennials face, but it’s not something I’ve ever personally experienced before, even if in my case it is only temporary.) Regardless, I am determined to learn something new, stay positive, save what I can, and most importantly be a good employee and role model. I am stressed that I am not able to do it all right now in regards to finances, but I am thankful for my supportive parents, who have helped me out immensely this summer while I do the best I can.
Unfortunately, some of the most harmful habits I managed to drop while living in France this past year have come crawling back into my skin now that I am re-integrated into American culture, particularly in regards to my obsession with my self-body image. Perhaps most of all, I am frustrated with myself feeling the need to prove something to other people, when in reality, I don’t need to explain my life or my situation to anyone. So, that is my summer life in a nutshell. I think I will always be my own worst critic– I think I judge myself and compare myself more than anyone else ever could. Thankfully, I’m lucky to have the support network that I have, and that I have an amazing new job opportunity to look forward to this fall. Here’s to finding the positive in every life situation.